Presence · Being

Follow me=Follow god

Cosmos Diary Words

—

PART 1

早晨 · 心理发掘：愿景与反愿景

Morning – Psychological Excavation – Vision & Anti-Vision

那种你已经学会跟它一起过下去的、闷闷的、一直没散的不满，是什么？不是多大的苦，是你早就习惯了忍下去的那点东西。（如果你不恨它，你就会一直忍它。）

What is the dull and persistent dissatisfaction you've learned to live with? Not the deep suffering but what you've learned to tolerate. (If you don't hate it, you will tolerate it)

你反复抱怨、却从来没真正动过的是什么？写下过去一年里你说得最多的三句。

What do you complain about repeatedly but never actually change? Write down the three complaints you've voiced most often in the past year.

每一句抱怨背后：如果一个人只看你怎么做、不听你怎么说，他会认定你真正想要什么？

For each complaint: What would someone who watched your behavior (not your words) conclude that you actually want?

你现在的日子，有什么事是你绝不肯对你最敬重的那个人承认的？

What truth about your current life would be unbearable to admit to someone you deeply respect?

如果未来五年一点都不会变，想一想一个普通的星期二。你在哪儿醒来？身上是什么感觉？第一个冒出来的念头是什么？身边有谁？上午九点到下午六点，你在做什么？到了晚上十点，你心里是什么滋味？

If absolutely nothing changes for the next five years, describe an average Tuesday. Where do you wake up? What does your body feel like? What's the first thing you think about? Who's around you? What do you do between 9am and 6pm? How do you feel at 10pm?

再把时间拉长到十年。你错过了什么？哪些门关上了？谁放弃了你？你不在场的时候，别人怎么议论你？

Now do it but for ten years. What have you missed? What opportunities closed? Who gave up on you? What do people say about you when you're not in the room?

你走到了生命的尽头。你走的是最稳妥的那条路。那个循环，你一次都没打破过。代价是什么？有什么是你从没让自己去感受、去试、去成为的？

You're at the end of your life. You lived the safe version. You never broke the pattern. What was the cost? What did you never let yourself feel, try, or become?

你身边，谁已经活在你刚描述的那个未来里？走在同一条路上、比你早五年、十年、二十年的人？想到要变成他，你是什么感觉？

Who in your life is already living the future you just described? Someone five, ten, twenty years ahead on the same trajectory? What do you feel when you think about becoming them?

为了真正改变，你必须放弃哪个身份？（「我是那种……的人」）不再当那个人，你在人前要付什么代价？

What identity would you have to give up to actually change? ("I am the type of person who...") What would it cost you socially to no longer be that person?

你还没改变，最让你难堪的那个原因是什么？就是那个一说出口就显得你软弱、害怕、或者懒，而不是显得你「有道理」的原因？

What is the most embarrassing reason you haven't changed? The one that makes you sound weak, scared, or lazy rather than reasonable?

如果你现在的行为是一种自我保护，你到底在保护什么？而这份保护正在让你付出什么？

If your current behavior is a form of self-protection, what exactly are you protecting? And what is that protection costing you?

先别管可行性。如果你打个响指，三年后就过上另一种人生——不是「现实的」那种，是你真正想要的——那是什么？一个普通的星期二是什么样？细节要像第 5 题那样。

Forget practicality for a minute. If you could snap your fingers and be living a different life in three years, not what's realistic, what you actually want? What does an average Tuesday look like? Same level of detail as question 5.

你得对自己相信点什么，那种日子过起来才显得自然，而不像硬撑？把身份写成一句话：「我是那种……的人。」

What would you have to believe about yourself for that life to feel natural rather than forced? Write the identity statement: "I am the type of person who..."

如果你已经是那个人，这一周你会做哪一件事？

What is one thing you would do this week if you were already that person?

PART 2

白天 · 打断自动驾驶

Throughout The Day – Interrupting Autopilot – Breaking Unconscious Patterns

现在就在手机里设六个提醒，或者排进日历，把问题原话写进去。时间挑得越随机、越不跟日程打架越好。 Take the time right now to create reminders or calendar events in your phone. Include the question in the reminder or event. The more random and non-conflicting with your schedule there are, the better.